Take it all down…

Let the warmth consume you…

I opened the bottle for the first time tonight, hands caressing it’s familiar shape as a those of one longing for a lovers sweet caress after so many years without. Inviting the all familiar burn, like the fires of unbridled passion, I pushed the pain away, tossed back my head, and choked down the flames that threatened to undo me. And as though in a daze, I was lulled into a sense of serene complacency, urgency, the desire for more. My own personal time machine, I used this crystalline confidante to forget the pain, erase it from my memory, my soul, my heart, if only for a while.

How easy it is to overcome your emotions when you’ve got a deliquescent inhibition remover that is beckoning you on, further and deeper. Like everything else in this world, it is flawed, and it’s only a matter of time before the euphoria goes away, leaving you the vulnerable, cringing shell of the person you were before, ripping from you the familiar disconnect, the perfect absence, the sweet ecstasy that resides your head.

I will regret this loss in the morning, when I wake, to start my day anew, to face the harsh, cold reality of the world, outside of my liquid safe haven.

Let the warmth consume you…

Take it all down…

Take a deep breath…